Hey I Can Do This,
I’m really sorry to hear about your relapse and money lost. Nice that you came clean about it on here. And I’m glad to hear your back on day 4. I’m on day 15. Things are all great but I’m happy to have not gambled for a couple weeks. All I want to do is pay back my debts and start over again and put this in the past. I’m sure you’re a good gambler and have won many times before. Our problem is that we can’t ever stop gambling if we win or can’r stop chasing the money we’ve lost. We always have plan and that this time it’s going to work out.
I want to be honest with myself and try to get to know myself better to understand why I want to gamble. Why I want to make money without having to work for it. Why I want the money in the first place. When I had close to 75K in the bank I didn’t feel much different. But I felt like I had security. I guess the point Im trying to make is that having money and not having money might not be the issue. It might be that we are unhappy with ourselves and are trying to escape ourselves by gambling.
Good luck on day 4 and getting to day 5. And me on getting to day 16. 🙂