Well, 8 days after my last post I left my husband. The fit of rage, sadness, dissatisfaction, loneliness and total lack of joy in my life proved too much. I went berserk and the next day I moved my stuff to Jodies. It was traumatic but Jode was my rock, giving me a warm bed ( in a little bungalow out the back) fed me when I could eat, let me sob for hours on end and gave me space.
nDames was devastated, to my absolute surprise. How could he not be as unhappy as I was? HOW?
nSo we decided to give it another try. I spent the last 3 months at Jodes while we did counseling, doctors appointments, went on dates and omg…..there he was! There was that husband I always wanted. He was in there all along!
nOf course it wasnt easy, we had to learn to be a couple again, counseling is continuing to cement things for us and after a lot of hard work from both of us, I moved back home.
nI have named it my ISO timeout.
nNot once did he say no, to anything I suggested that may have helped. He did the complete opposite of everything i thought he would do. He actually blew my mind. My timeout proved to be the thing that bought us closer together….believe me, when I walked out I was DONE! Im still scratching my head as to what happened. I did not gamble during this time, I didnt even think of it. What i did do was a lot of self help podcasts, a lot of soul searching, working out what I wanted, and lots of sleep.
nIm happy, we are happy together, communication is brilliant, we love each other and we are going in the same direction and want the same things.
nSo theres my update. Its been a crazy 3.5 months, I feel more in touch with myself than I ever did, and closer to dames than I have for over 5 years.
nIts been 11 years since my last bet ( minus a couple of slips).
nIm ready for the rest of my life!
nLove K xxxxx
