Thank you for your posts Cat and Vera, Well last night I did sleep a little better, but I woke this morning feeling frantic and wanting a way to get my money back, it’s a huge amount- too much to express how much I’ve lost especially this last year! Anyway, instead I did what my mom and I talked about me doing last night, and that is I printed off the self banning sheets all the casinos in the state near me, not just the one I had already banned myself from but all of them, and I forced myself to hop out of bed and go get them notorized and thank goodness I sent them in! Now I am banned from all casinos near me! That helps me alot, but I know I am always going to be a compulsive gambler and I can’t let me guard down. I could drive 4 hours to an even further state, I realize that- but for now at least the tempation of the places that were an hour distance from me will be gone, or at least I won’t be able to go there! I still feel horrible. But it’s day 2 again of non gambling, and so I am going to try to move forward. I think I need therapy and my mom is coming to visit me for a few weeks on the 20th of this month and she said she will go to GA with me.. I ran errands today and I couldn’t wait to get home to post on here, so I guess that is at least something! I just need to feel surrounded by others who understand what I am going through because it makes no logical sense to anyone, only those who have been in our shoes! Well, I have to start living odaat. I don’t do that too often, I look ahead way too much! I wish you all a gamble free day!
