Hello The.End and welcome to the forum. I went to bed too many times totally exhausted and disillusioned after losing big, losing huge, wishing I could sleep for a long, long time or wishing I could shrink, shrink to the size of a sand grain; must be possible I reasoned, we’re empty space for the most part, we just don’t have the technology yet. And then, shrunk I would hide and let the time pass until I forgive myself and more importantly until my gambling-caused problems are gone.
So I would crawl under my blankets, cover myself completely and wish that I could hide and that no one would find me or miss me. But the morning would come too soon, the unforgiving reality would enter the day and the magnitude of the despair I found myself in, once again, would dawn on me.
I haven’t gambled in 37 days now. My advise, for what it’s worth, is you need to trick (or reprogram) you brain into not gambling. Get a different perspective on the whole thing.
I wish you luck in fighting your demons.