It is a horrible feeling that you have lost those lovely years. But please remember that they are not just happy, carefree years for everyone. Lots of young folk struggle with different things as they adapt to adult life. Don’t torture yourself thinking the rest of the world has had a great time and only you have made poor decisions etc.
Now, take stock and look to what you can achieve if you begin the journey of recovery – and I don’t necessarily mean material success, etc – but things like living honestly and with some contentment etc.
I wish you well.
Monique