Hello i-did -it. I have not gambled since the 7th of this month. I’m still clean. I just had a conversation with my father. My father told me he will not give me any money. He is very worried about me but he will support me with love and emotional feelings. He said the door will always be opening. Its time to stop turning to people looking for money.
I got paid on saturday. I owe 300 euro and they never took the 300 euro out of my wages. Kate from our accounts department said she put the wages through but forgot to deduct the 300 euro. The 300 euro will be deducted next month. I will work out which bills are important to pay. I cant pay everything. Its impossiable to pay off huge debts when you have only started in recovery. Each month will get better but Its a long road ahead. Its only the start of a new journey.
29 years of gambling has caused so much pain in mylife. Sometimes I feel great in myself and other times I feel Worthless.I think when a a compulsive gambler stops,Our feelings and thoughts are all over the place. No matter how much we try and relax our thoughts just keep racing. It will take time I suppose.