Hello,
Thank you very much for your kind support. I’m sorry for my late response but i had no access to the internet these days.
I totally agree with your that my decision for my wife will be harmful for a lifetime. But the worst thing is that if i’ll tell her the truth she will not stay with me. I’m almost sure about it. I will not be able to live without her and my daughter… all i have left are they…
It really feels impossible to stop gambling.. i have not played these 2 days, but maybe just because that i have no money for it. I have removed my last 420 GEL(around 180$) from my credit card not to transfer it to online gambling site.. and keeping it in my pocket.. and i really feel better.. but i made like this many times..
My friend, its the first posts and you all are first persons who know about it, i tried many times to start talking with my wife, but i can’t.. i just can’t… Words dont come out from my mouth.. and every time she asks me whats wrong, i’m answering that i had bad day at job. I dont know how to tell her.. maybe it will be easier if i write down a latter about my life for last 2 year, and ask her to read it. What do you think about it?
And the worst thing is that, i really have a good job, but because i was thinking about gambling, i wasnot able to done my job. and money earning in my job depends only on done projects. In 2014 i have done more that 25 project and my earning was more than 45 000$ (this is good earning for Georgia, average earning per year is around 3600-4000$), and last year i made only 3 projects… This makes me crazy, i really have good opportunity to solve everything with my debts, but first of all bank and microfance organizations will not wait.. they push me and percents are arising and arising… OMG.. worst 2 years of my life…
i want to type all my feeling but it was always hard for me to talk about my feelings..
My grandfather always told me, what happens everything is for better. And i was living like that, but this time, i cant not find any advantage from my situation..
Thanks again for your kind advices. There is a solution in everything, but i dont know how to solve it yet.
i’m sure ill find a way but it should not be late or bad solution.