I just read all your posts Ican, and I am only 2 days into not gambling again after a 2 months gamble free time.. I blew it this past weekend and went crazy like you stated you did in April I believe and I spent so much money and time and it was a marathon, and when I was out of money I drove all the way home, got more and went and did more.. It was horrible and I lost so much money it wasn’t even real! I thought 2 months ago when I lost thousands at one sitting and I banned myself from that particular casino that I was in the clear! Wrong, I just drove a little further to a casino I didn’t even care for,and went nuts for no reason either, I was doing well and enjoying life again and well I blew it big time. Today I self banned from the whole state, all the casinos.. It was hard because as you said I think wow I can’t gamble, yes we really do “think” we like it! But the truth is it’s horrible, terrible and to me disgusting of a place to be! Yet there we sit in front of our machines, or others who play cards or whatever and we get lost! Now I have to face the music again. I like that you got a part time job, I think I need to do something for myself, not just work in our family business all the time,but do something for me too! Anyway, I understand how you feel and I wish you the best and I am right there with you. I’m just hanging on for dear life hoping I won’t ever find a place to gamble again.
