Hi Vera
Thank you for your kind reminder.
I was using my past experiences and my intellect to help me with this decision. It is just total insanity for me if I expect the same people at work to do the same thing with a different result.
Of course if I continue to let the same people take advantage of me and use me like a door mat, I will continue to be paid the same amount on the same job but is it worth it. Holding on to this job and salary is making me lose the peace and joy that recovery has brought me.
Learning to trust and let go to a higher power and God of my own understanding involves tremendous strong faith and courage otherwise it feels like jumping off a cliff.
It was a total reverse, now it is putting recovery first in every situation.
In the past, job and money comes first, and I take alcohol and gamble when everything at work fall apart.
I need to remind myself not to listen to my selfish, self-centered and self-seeking desires because when I do that, I always get into troubles.
I had to continue to trust and handover my will and my life over to the care of God of my own understanding.
Everything I can do, I will do it myself, anything I cannot do, he will take care of it.
Recovery is a new territory, march on…..
