I had a very hard time sleeping last night. I kept replaying
My night of my relapse over and over. And like a true gambler
I kept saying , “if I had put 50$ on that side bet I would have won 50k” like a true Cg it’s like saying if I had picked the right lottery ticket at the right gas station I would be a millionaire. I’m happy that I relapsed in a sense I know I have not hreaten this addiction and it makes me really not want to place a bet or step foot near a casino again. I am working again now so I will be able to make the money back in a month or so, so sad thinking that is money I lost within minutes will take me months to make back. I cannot wait to go 12 months gamble feee, I have done it before and I will do it again. I love a life without any gambling. Gambling has ruined my mental health and I will beat this demon one day. I am in control of the wheel called life. Good luck to all and a happy new year. A happy gamble free new year. Let’s all crush this !
