[JohnNobody]

Had strong urges at different points today. Do I learn NOTHING from my disgraceful past!! Did not follow through on them though. Just angry that they persist. No gambling today. Instead I just had a slob of a day intermittent with bouts of work. Time for a Netflix movie now then at some point before 5am try sleep.

I detest my addiction to gambling. I did forward think though to how I would feel when I loose (I always lost) and thought back to 10 days ago when I blew my brains out online. The sick terrible feeling that has taken over a week to shake off. Gotta keep at this. No choice!
Keep fighting everyone in your own way and with your own very unique battles!!!!