Good advice from idi Tina. I am still not going to advise on when and how you tell your partner, you will come to your decision in your own good time. Always better to fess up is all I will say. On the suicide plan, whilst this is a difficult subject I also have had and still have a suicide plan. But I did confess this to my doctor. I could never do anything violent like hanging or jumping off things. Like your gas oven, mine is a gentle oblivion, out on a heroin overdose. Where I get it from is another matter! Stroll down Brixton back streets probably. This is such a sensitive subject. I have told family that I wanted to commit suicide but I don’t dramatise this or focus on it too much. Just that the addiction and the resultant financial pressures brought you to that place. I believe it is oossIble to shift out of this space with the right support. I have been there a lot during the 5 years of this addiction but even more so I am sorry to say in recovery. The lows and depression last for many weeks. There isn’t a magic wand. I really wish there was. And coming out of this is taking for me a very long time but it took five and a half years for me to get into the deep hole I dug. Recovery is undoubtedly the biggest challenge of my life and I have had many. Recovery is not easy at all.
