Ty Jon that helped me. I get the feeling you have been through a similar journey to. And it is a question of choice . When I keep on thinking about the social implications and what it will do I just want to hide my head in the ground or run away. How did I loose site of reality so bad? It seems so easy to be or have a numb mind that goes on auto pilot and does all this crazy stuff but its a whole other story to stay alert and in control. The more you do of the same the more the devil takes over and then its like driving a fast car without stoping at the lights. The worst part is that I did not want to be this side of the river I wanted to have mastered the game and found a solution to all my shit. Hey I could gamble in 5000 pounds in wins in 50 mins flat I would not have to work or do anything else. I could let the company make profits and live of my gambling wins. Then god or life or the devil or fate stepped in and grabbed me by the balls and draged me back to earth. Slapped me down to the ground and put a foot on me so I could not fly anymore. And the results are always the same. We end up pocketless, bankrupts, have yelling wives or husbands wondering where the rent money or child support is.The lies we tell to stay in our own reality is also a universal gambling thing. As long as the bubble does not burst we can continue live on and “prosper”.
I hate the predictability of gambling. It makes f… sick to my stomach knowing that we all are apr doing the same and no one figures the shit out. As long as we are all happy and pressing on a button leaving a betting slip or betting on 20 and hoping the bloody nr shows up we are good. The other side makes auto cash on us and our side bleed in silence till the storm breaks. Result we wait for a knock on the door from people wanting the telly and they buy a new yacht on Malta. The whole thing should be banned. Advertising, gaming halls the … lot. If someone calculated the losses vs the wins the costs would be to great.