Wow. I expect it felt good to get that off your chest, and good that you have admitted to yourself and your family that you have a problem. You talk about wanting to find a new you. A new you is a person in recovery. A new you is someone who is putting the past behind him and making a clean start. The one positive thing about my gambling is that it allowed me to find out so much more about myself, through groups and counselling and reading. Take up any and every opportunity to further your recovery. Put the effort into finding this new you that you once put into gambling. Try and get your spouse to get support as well, it will be a journey for both of you!
