Good job on 50 days gamble free brother. That’s something to be proud of. I hear you on the christmas thing. I just recently started living gamble free and it’s been tough. I too have a 20 years gambling history and am finding it difficult thinking about my losses of money, time, youth, opportunity, etc. I feel a bit helpless at times but then I try to change my mindset that can’t ever gamble again and that I never win and if I do I continue to bet until it’s all gone. I love my family most days and find it difficult to spend the little money I have giving them presents. I definitely feel a little bad, but also realize that I need to take care of myself and the best present I can give right now is to become me again for all of them. If they truly love us they should just want us to be happy. Christmas does t need to be a time for money, it’s a time for family and spending time with them. Every year goes by faster and faster and the best opportunity we have is spending time with the few people in the world that really care.
I got an email from one of my gambling sites today. I’m sure it was a christmas bonus. I even tried to logon to see what it was but they would;t allow me as I’ve been gamble blocked from the site. I was a tad disappointed but then the feeling went away and I moved on and didn’t care what they sent me or wanted to tell me.
