[lizbeth4]

I haven’t done anything today but watch movies and eat! I tried to do some beading but couldn’t get interested in it. Seems the only thing to keep my interest is doing yard work. Which I will do tomorrow if it’s not raining. I hate my life and what I let this addiction do to me! I feel unworthy of anything good. Sometimes I wonder why I’m even trying. Maybe I should just sell my home, get what I can and move back to the city. Find a small apartment. I’m ready to give up!!!