Glad to see you made it through another day. The beginning of recovery can be a very painful time where each breath feels as though it is covered in sharp edges and I know I wanted darkness and oblivion. No more pain. You and I had talked in another post about why your GF didn’t want to take over finances and I see you probably answered the why in your post about your mother. She probably didn’t want to stand between you and an addiction you weren’t ready to give up yet. As Charles suggests perhaps your brother could take care of your finances and help keep you safe. But in the end that is only a tool that you can use. The actual recovery is up to the person using a tool. Please reach out to any support system you can find in your location. More tools in your tool box. One on one addictions counseling can be very helpful. Talk to your doc about the desparate place you find yourself and that you are ready to make a change and that you need support! Please hang in there Stephen. Just a little change can lead to big changes. Praying for you.
Laura
