Gino I agree with Laura –
The gambling and suicidal feelings are intertwined .
Every relapse I felt the same .
Please answer this question- what have u to lose by seeking help? Everybody needs help sometime.
Your family need you – you may find it difficult to see that right now .
Please reach out – ring the samaritians or befrienders.
Don’t let pride stand in the way of seeking help .
Who is in your family ?
I have looked up some links for you
There is also a helpline on this site .
No harm in giving it a go .
What do you think ?