Well I promise to keep checking in. It makes me sad to read stories of how people have destroyed their lives do to gambling and I don’t find it helping me right now as I’m in my own struggle. I have admitted that I’ve become powerless over gambling and in an effort to save my life have stopped one day at a time.
I have to agree that after a period of “clean” time I had relapsed thinking I was back to normal and could control my betting. It was a huge painful mistake, my compulsive behavior took over and we know where that goes.
Just for today I won’t gamble and I hope someone else won’t too, we are fighting for our lives. I do a lot of reading and found my addiction was sub conscious, I was gambling to escape my negative emotions.
I am now looking into root causes for those negative emotions which gambling only made worse after the temporary escape.
I want myself back and that’s what I’m fighting for, please dig deep think about your family and the life you had before you were powerless.
We can all stop and stay stopped one day at a time. Urges come and urges go, usually caused by negative emotions and gambling will only make them worse.
I’m taking some time off from my computer to help with the depression I’m suffering, exercising, walking, and reading a lot. I’ll check in and post in a few days.