I am well aware of what rationally should do.I am well aware life with my partner will be a hell if I stay with-it is already as for the last days he seems distant,untalkative unloving,uncaring.I know I have to open the door and leave..But this part of me the emotional,where after 18 years of loneliness,desperation hopelesness,someone-this one-approached me,showed me interest,affection later,gave me a reason to live,to relive rather,to desire again love,life and dreams,how easy it is watching it now crushed? I have no words to describe how i feel. it is like someone is stabbing my heart with a knife not just once so it is all over,no life no pain,but persistantly turning the knife round and round.I wanted to talk only for the emotional pain I am feeling right now,along with the biterness,deep disappointment,betrayal,pain rage.i will be grateful for emotional support.thank you.
