Vera thanks for your post, I know what you mean and at any given time it only takes a second to make the wrong choice, it’s strange how life works I have to admit because when I look deep there is (and has always been) another road for me to take apart from the gambling one, I just kept going down the same road over and over again……..guess what I kept getting the same outcome!! (as we both well know)
I just wanted to share this, I woke up this morning (thank God for that) and whilst making the kids breakfast I was thinking about gambling today, I had a restless night and didn’t sleep well at all, so ok I have thought it through and I am going to share the outcome’s.
1. I choose to gamble and lose!
So I (obtain) money and place a bet, it loses so I start chasing obtaining money by any way possible and that means the hole I am in just gets deeper and deeper, hurt more people, keep gambling, cause more pain and suffering not just to me but to others, people I love and care about, more stress, keep on gambling and keep on digging, more importantly what it means is all those doors I have closed (by working my recovery and making the choice not to gamble) will be opened again and in my compulsive gambling mind it’s ok to keep gambling (in my real mind I know it is far from OK to keep gambling), so here is a sum to make it simple for me as at times I am a very intelligent but at other times thick as two short planks (I can say this but no one else lol)
Gamble + lose = lose
2. I choose to gamble and win!
I again (obtain) money by any means in any way shape or form (lies), I place a bet and I win…….great……….no, so I win and I keep gambling because when I gamble that’s what I do I keep gambling I cannot stop gambling when I am gambling, now this is a fact I know this because I have done it for 25 years, I keep winning………….great…………no, because in the end because I cannot stop I keep gambling then either later toady or tomorrow or if I am very lucky I will get to Tuesday and the would have lost everything, then I have to (obtain) money because I have to gamble because all the doors I have shut when I stop gambling I have opened back up by making the choice to gamble, I keep gambling, keep digging a bigger hole, hurt more people, neglect more people and lose the most important thing to me (time with my family), so the sum for this one is,
gamble + win = lose
3. This is my choice, just for today I will not gamble, I am a compulsive gambler and I know I have to stay away from that first bet, I know by staying away from that first bet my life isn’t perfect but it’s where I want it to be!
Don’t gamble + Recovery = Happy life
Thanks for listening and hope you all enjoy the rest of the weekend, wish you all well.
Maverick