Jeff – I think we know when we have a gambling problem – but we like to deny it time and time again. That is why I got into the “lets see if I can bet normally” mentality when things were going well for me. It was only when I did this 3 or 4 times that I had to admit I could not.
I had to take recovering from gambling as seriously as I took my gambling. I put a lot of time and effort (as well as a stack of money) into my gambling. The time and effort also has to go into recovery – blocking and banning myself from every place where I might gamble both online and off. Keeping busy with other (non-gambling) hobbies. Keeping my finances down to essential expenses only and getting great support for myself.
You mentioned a friend convinced you to go to a casino. Let your friends know that you no longer gamble. It can be helpful to let them know you have a problem – then they may be able to help you, but if not – just say you don’t gamble any more, you don’t have to give a reason. Many people don’t gamble for moral or religious reasons … I think some assume I am like that.
If you can find support locally – go for it. I tried to stop on my own and found the stress too much. I went to Gamblers’ Anonymous and then to counseling … in some countries the latter can be available through a medic – check that out. Otherwise use the groups here – for real time support or check things like SMART groups on-line. I wish you well.