For a compulsive gambler, one bet is too many and a thousand is never enough.
As Jappy says, we will never get out of the hole we are creating if we don’t first stop digging.
How are you planning on hiding the payments on that kind of debt from your parents?
Counseling may be helpful to address this. Cognitive Behavioural Therapy which helps change thought processes can be a helpful part of that.
A support system such as gambler’s anonymous or church group can be helpful as well.
We didn’t chose to have this addiction. Most of us weren’t even aware such a thing existed.
As hard and difficult as it feels right now, you can have a better life, a gamble free life with the things in that make life truly meaningful. It takes courage to admit you have a problem and do the things necessary to deal with it. As much as people let on they don’t have problems most do. My mother often tells me how proud she is of me and that I took the bull by the horns and dealt with it. I was very low when I finally admitted my problem. But I did the things suggested to me here finally. And they made a world of difference.
Can you ban from the casino you frequent? Or are you in a location where this can’t happen.
Please don’t give up hope.
Laura