that just makes me cry..I feels so sad and lost. I had never thought about it like that.
Yes I need to tell my partner. I know he will be supportive. I am such an honest person normally..and also very open about my flaws to the world. This time, I don’t know what has happened. I have told him and other people before that I had a problem with gambling.
Maybe this time..I find it hard because I actually believe it. Im scared. I still have my partner..my children, a nice home and a good job.
Ive lost my social life..unless its gambling. I don’t go out. unless its gambling. I spend most of my alone hours thinking about how stupid I’ve been.
yes I’m in debt but its not terrible..but I know its heading that way. Im a psychiatric nurse..I listen and hear about people ruining there lives because of addiction of some kind. I can help them and i am good at it..probably mostly because i understand that gut wrenching feeling day in and day out. but when it comes to me..i can’t even listen to my own advice. I will tell my partner one day. i believe i am a CG but I am not sure how strong i am. therefore i will wait till i believe i can beat this.
I feel like I have to be strong for other people day in and day out. yet I can’t be strong for myself. it makes me angry and sad
