[alliesmum]

So I am sat watching TV and my brain starts doing sums (as I would playing slots). I knew every win possible so I could add my winnings per 20spins.

First proper urge in 4days. Maybe it’s because there is money coming into the bank account tomorrow?
Kind of a weird, sick to my stomach, heart pounding feeling.

I can control this. I will no longer let it control me!

I will not gamble. I will not give in.