[Nel]

i have had my partner keep my debit and credit cards as well as my checkbook. embarrassingly enough i always find my way around that and last night, i searched the house until i found a check. went back to the bar and cashed it to keep gambling. i was ravaging around to find it like a crazed animal. it was nuts. of course i had been drinking, which always contributes and escalates the madness. i was a mess!