Well done on your first post. I can relate to everything you have written. Your account sums up the reality of gambling and the true nature of the compulsive gambler.
In the beginning it feels like fun. Then the fun turns to a buzz and the buzz becomes a compulsion. I agree that this compulsion is based on avarice . The more we win, the more we expect to win. When we lose, we become desperate to win it all back. The cycle is endless until we stop.
A Compulsive Gambler thinks he/she LOVES to gamble but the reality is he HAS to gamble. It comes to a stage where we cannot function without placing a bet. That is why gambling is described as a progressive disease. It is only when I realized that I would NEVER win , that I called a halt to the madness.
Best wishes with your plans. After I lost a large sum of money, I was advised by a member on GT to put a Plan in place. I have been working on saving a set amount each month to restore that loss. In conjunction with my savings plan, I repay my debt. Recovery is all about balance. Trying to wipe out debt and restore losses at a fast pace will set a CG back to square one.
Stay focused.
Keep posting.
Welcome to GT.
