First of all thank you for commenting, it actually really makes a difference and keeps me wanting to stay gamble free. I understand what youre saying, rock bottom can mean different things for different people and at different stages in life. Im happy in a way that im determined to make a real effort to quit, but it also means that i eventually have to hurt people i love in a way i havent before by telling them. Sure i have been distant and agitated cause of my problem which needs to stop. Im just so very afraid that it would lead to zero trust or worse.
I still have not gambled, yay! 1 week and 2 days. Now the weekend is here and my mind is spinning with gambling thoughts. But i wont and cant do it. Tonight i will spend time with my loved ones and give them time and attention.