[icandothis]

Feeling sure of my commitment to recovery this morning, sure I will not miss gambling…at least not much… that I wanted to quit more than ever before. and then…I received a picture message from my girlfriend who is in Vegas with her daughter. She is sitting in front of a slot machine in the picture. She has a great job. Been one of my gambling buddies when we go out of town. Just gambles a bit. I have watched her stop when her money runs out. No garbage around going from time to time. Do I sound jealous? Because I am! I hate that I can’t be like her when it comes to gambling. I really do! This morning I was mad at myself. Now I’m just mad!