Feeling Better.
I think – hope – the meds are working. While I am having feeling of regret of what I have done and how I have lived my life, not just the gambling, I feel not happier, but more normal. More like me. I don’t have an urge to gamble, and I think if I did I could handle it in the same way as I will handle feelings of regert that worm their way into my mind. Accept them, and then refocus.
I will not feel sorry for myself today, there is no value in that.
I can’t fix my life in one day, but I can do positive things today so that when I go to sleep, knowing what needs to be done tomorrow, I can be satsfied that I am making progress.
And who can ask for more than that
I think I understand the mantra one day at atime better know.
Good luck to everyone out there and all my love
Mav