I commend you for your honesty and perseverance through your difficulties, it is courageous to see. From my perspective I see an unrealistic goal, as a compulsive gambler myself this would inentivably lead to a relapse. It is great that you have that desire and ambition to be gamble free for an extended period of time, however what will you do when you achieve your goal? And if you fail to achieve it this inevitably leads to disappointment, despair, shame etc.
The phrase ‘one day at a time’ is uttered often, but I can’t think of a more apt one in your case. Keep your focus in the present day and the time will pass without thinking of it – this is my advice speaking from my own personal experience, feel free to use it how you see fit.
