Thank you velvet for replying ,although I have lot of friends and family , they are brilliant and I don’t no what I would’ve done with them ,I lot has happened since my last post , I actually felt bit defensive for him re-your reply , he’s not a bad man , just has an illness and as much as it breaks my heart I can totally understand why he met someone else, he has no friends , family that aren’t close,and obviously he don’t want them to no , he feels ashamed and I basically turned my back an couldn’t be inter mate with him anymore , he left and feels he’s ruined his life an obviously he needs the love an support of someone , but I do feel he’s not thinking straight about his life , and as far as I’m aware he thinks he can stop by himself , I hope I’m wrong and he has sort help , but it’s been 5months now and I worry about him as much today as I have done for last 4years , obviously for myself I’m devastated but I so want him to be happy and sort his life out , I wish it had been with me , but I can’t seem to let go
