[lizbeth4]

I’m getting ready for work. My Sister will be here tomorrow afternoon. I have to work tomorrow but then have 2 days off because of Columbus day. Today I was literally on my knees praying. The rest of my life doesn’t have to be crappy! I need to change my way of thinking about myself. I do have worth and I mean something to my Daughters and Grandkids and friends who love me regardless of my flaws. Gambling can’t be a part of me. Never!!!  I thought about not waking up this morning.  To end the pain but the pain I would cause my children and Grandkids would haunt me.  I couldn’t do it   I’m not suicidal, just tired.  Living is real hard sometimes.  I guess I need to find the joys!