[kin]

I cannot describe how I feel, I am not my normal self, I am not in total control of myself, I would do or say thing that I dont normally do everyday. 

Sometime, I suspect that I am crazy, something in the head is not right, it could be some chemical or hormones imbalance in the brain, I really dont know , I do feel mentally exhausted.

It is time like this that I will do something to correct my feeling, the first drink, the first gamble, the first everything when all I need to do is nothing and rest.

I will feel better when I wake up. I am sleeping early tonight.

first sensible thing I do in a long long time.

Update: feeling better now after 5 hours sleep