Dear diary,
I feel very different this week, I seem to be a little depress. I was not resting and sleeping well, it makes me very tired. When I wake up, I don’t feel like going to work, it make me take MC. I was also not motivated to go jogging and used the wet weather as an excuse. On top of that I notice that I feel like eating more and gamble.
I struggle to say yes to do the right thing and struggle to say no to do the wrong thing.
Everything doesn’t made sense to me, I need the job and I want to manage my weight, I don’t need to gamble but I feel like doing all the opposite things.
This is nothing new to me because of my history. These are signs that I have gone into the mental relapse mode.
I must not trust what my head tell me to do…found out my eczema has relapse, maybe this is the source of my stress.
I just say “The Lord’s Prayer”
