Romans 12:2
Don’t copy the behaviour and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good, acceptable, pleasing and perfect.
Dear diary
What are the challenges that I faces from the people I meet recently.
In recovery:
1. I meet people who is trying to advance their counselling career in addiction, their intention was self-centered and self-seeking, it was no different from the compulsive gambler they once were in the past. It was all about them and not about me, it doesn’t help me in my recovery.
2. I meet well to do recovering people who chooses to do leisure and control gambling. They are a group of privilege people who have wealth and can afford the habit. Worst still, many cannot afford the habit but did not think there was anything wrong. We do not share a common goal of going total abstinent in recovery.
3. I meet some recovering people I first met a few years ago in different group meetings, these are not the one who are stable and has the most clean time, I will never understand their intention, I don’t know whether they are trying to protect their group or their recovery, they will pick on people doing things differently from them. It could be about the other recovery support groups or places that I went or the recovery program that I use, it was never about my recovery.
4. It is not uncommon to be rejected by some people who feel that we are different but these people are only the minority.
5. There will always be fake people who is seeking popularity, importance and attention from others or self glory, they will never be able to do what they tell others to do, they only give false hope and empty promises if not lies or conman stories.
It can become a tricky situation for me, do I be a door mat and allow them to step all over me, or do I be a people pleaser to make them like me for the wrong reason, both can be harmful to my recovery. Do I have a choice, can I walk away from them, do I focus and centered on people and place for my recovery or do I focus on God and the recovery program for my recovery? Who is more caring, loving and more powerful? Who was the same yesterday, today and tomorrow, who is more consistent, dependable, almighty and reliable? Which is going to be my top priority to help me stay stop?
I learn to protect my recovery, I learn to walk away from people and place who can affect my recovery. I learn to focus harder on God and the 12 steps recovery program.
Building up a strong network of support has been vital to progress in recovery, when one door closes, there was no fear as there are many other doors open. Most importantly, all these places have a common goal, the same God and the same recovery program that I could follow, their message was all the same. My recovery did not stop, it continues..