so i have day 1 under my belt again, it got off to a bumpy start after for some reason i bought some scratchcards on 1st January, i actually did this without thinking and i have no idea as i dont usually but as they were a trigger point for me on boxing day i am classing them as gambling so technically i gambled on the morning but i have set my counting app from the point of buying them and i now accrued over a day, a shaky start but more of a learning curve than giving in to the need of gambling so i feel ok about it 🙂
i tried to self exclude today but when i walked into the bookies there was too many people there and i felt embarrassed as nobody sees what i lose as i use the self terminals, they only see when im collecting and see me as a professional gambler or something. i know it sounds stupid but thats how i felt, so i pretended to put a bet on at the terminal and walked out. there is a number you can call if you dont want to go into the bookies and do it and it excludes from every bookies in the uk, not sure how it works but that sounds perfect for me. i tried to phone today but it was answering machine as today is technically a bank holiday.
it would be heaven if i was banned from everywhere.
today i did not gamble :)…get in!!