Deb,
Thank you for your comment and the positive words.
Would definitely be hard to do that, given the dynamic of this person. I am grateful that my wife is able to vent to her when needed, though she informed me that said friend does not offer much in the way of helpful support when she does vent to her.
As for an update, my life feels like a roller coaster, with the only flat section being that I have not gambled or have felt much temptation to. This does not mean that I don’t think about it, but I feel strong enough to not feed into it.
I was looking forward to going to see the counselor and mentally prepped myself to be an open book with him–this is real hard for me to do. Unfortunately, due to some absolute nonsense, I was unable to make my appointment. Seems like a real nice guy and was understanding.
I am also looking to go back to school and become a physical therapist assistant. One of the happiest times in my life was when I was working as a personal trainer while enrolled in college. I do real good working at an individual level with people and I feel that it is critical that I work outside of the home. Currently, I am the primary caregiver of our two year old and I work online, which has really suffered since the two year old came along. She is a touch cookie and when we don’t stick to the routine, it is mayhem and I have my hands full.
Really looking forward to getting back into school, learning, and working towards a profession that benefits society.
That’s all for right now. I may vent in these posts from time to time, because I truly don’t have someone in my life who I am able to open up to and just talk.
-B