Dear Anni
I get what you mean about hating the site but I don’t think you would be posting if you didn’t believe that for all the bad there must be good here too.
I would love to hear more about you and your son and maybe I can give you some support during this seemingly hopeless situation. As the mother of a CG I know where you are coming from and the depths of misery you are finding yourself in following the ray of hope that was snuffed out after your son went to Gordon House.
You have said ‘we’ so I am wondering if you have a husband/partner to support you at this time. I hope you don’t find me intrusive and I know I am generalising but often husbands, partners, families give up before mothers and their seeming disinterest adds to the overwhelming misery. I know I am surmising and I hope you will post again and put me straight.
I can hear your strength and I am glad of it. I hope you will feel you can share with me because I know that my son will always a CG just like yours so I know how hard this post must have been for you to write.
I have a group on Tuesdays 20.00-21.00 hours UK time where we communcate in real time – it is for Friends and Families only and nothing said in that group leaves the room. We are able to be very open and I believe it is a place of comfort from which members gain strength. Our helpline is one-to-one Anni and it is manned by at least one CG who has been through Gordon House and is living in control of the addiction to gamble – maybe it would help to talk there, I don’t think anybody could understand more than someone who has been in your son’s shoes – it is private and you can express your feelings safely.
It probably is just a matter of coming to terms but my gosh I know the terms are terrible to contemplate. There are positives Anni and maybe between us we can find them – I hope so.
I wish you well and hope you will post again
Velvet
