for the last 3 days, I was avoiding checking what is my current financial condition to avoid any additional bad feeling since I guess I need another one year to back to where I was in December 2019. I was negative in December but I was close to reaching Zero which is my dream for the last 4 years “to recover from the debt that my gambling addiction caused”.
ntoday I have checked my current situation and as expected I need another year to reach zero.
nI am writing all of this just to say I am depressed not because of the debt, I am depressed from the thoughts that start raise in my head while I am planning how to squeeze my budget to save more and expedite the recovery, I found myself thinking about a strategy to trade forex in a better way, I have started thinking what went wrong in my last trades and how I can correct that !!!!!!!! the same delusions that trading with margin could be the solution to my problem !!!
nit seems I will never learn…..
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nthere is a damaged circuit in my brain that gives trading forex as an answer to the question of ” how I can speed up my financial recovery ?”.
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