I know that it’s part of the recovery process that I will have some of these days when I’m not feeling the best. These are important days. I need to continue to believe that things will work out if I don’t gamble. The thoughts of winning are coming back into my head. The euphoric highs and the regrets of not quitting while I was up $44k, only a mere 10 days ago. It’s funny when I think back of gambling, I think back of the wins, the great memories, but the devastating loses are easily forgotten. I MUST NOT forget all the pain and torture this disease has caused me over the years. The tens of thousands of wasted hours.
I have to get through today. I have to be productive today. It’s going to be a challenge but no one said this was going to be easy.
I don’t have clarity of thought today and will just leave it at this. Thank you for reading.