Well as i expected this weekend was tough. i feel like i have developed a split personality and the last 48 hrs have been me versus me having so many arguments with myself that i am exhausted. The good news is i didn’t gamble and when i have checked scores i would have won on most games but if i am honest there’s a couple i would have picked that would have lost me my bets
I have been laid out on the settee most of the weekend totally not well, the common cold having turned into a chest infection ( vera your remedy does seem to be helping though) its bizzare as i literally never get ill, it’s like the hands of fate believe i want to beat this addiction and they foresaw a tough gambling weekend ahead so knocked me of my feet…just to be sure, thanks for that! Ha
I have just watched 2 movies back to back, the gambler which we can all relate to and a film called burnt, towards the end of this film i got a bit emotionally, not for sad reasons but because i truly felt there was hope for me. This film was about working for what you really want even if you fail and have to start again, you get back up and carry on and eventually the sun will shine through. It’s about accepting those rough days and riding them out.
In another 16 hrs i will hit my 1 week mark, i really don’t want to see day 1 again.
