Thanks for the tips Steev. I agree with everything you wrote. All the relapses I had started with “should I shouldn’t I”, leading to “one lotto ticket once and then won’t hurt” leading to disaster in just days or weeks. I found a place nearby where they don’t sell any scratch cards or lotto so I’ve been buying ciggaretes from there.
nApart from that, I’m just existing. I don’t know how deep this phrase is in English, but I don’t mean “just existing” in a bad way, it’s like I’m living day by day, still loving to go to work and be with my friends from work, who by the way don’t go to the casino anymore, which helps.
nI made one important decision in my life that I was thinking of making since a few years. I don’t want to be too specific but basically I was in a project since a long time that didn’t bring anything to me anymore. Telling the manager I wanted to leave and seeing how supportive he was made me realise I can indeed change at least some aspects of my life. I was a bit afraid that his reaction was going to be bad, I overhought it so much, and then it was just so simple.
nI hope you’re all doing fine and winning the fight against gambling!
nTake care.
