Day #38
This evening a gambling thought did cross my mind. Not saying that there was a big chance of me acting on it, but I did think about it and for a couple of seconds how I could actually win if I only played my A game at poker. Of course I know I’m not able to play my A game and even if I did I probably couldn’t even break even. But I thought ‘what if’.
So I came here, read some posts and the crazy thought is gone.
It amazes me that after everything I went through a thought like that could still enter my mind and have me consider it.
Well, it actually doesn’t amaze me, the fact that gambling is such a huge problem for so many people goes to show me that it is an extremely tricky addiction. It’s like dealing with an extremely sly, tricky and manipulative person. Really scary sometimes.