Day 2 was constructive.
Kept myself busy: progressed exclusions and job applications as planned, and spent some good quality time with my wife and parents.
Day ended with a good group chat too, and hysterical laughter rather than tears for a change.
Haunting flashbacks remain, which I am beginning to think will never go away…and that’s ok as maybe part of remission should be to never forget, with the painful memories driving me to stay on course.
Finances remain surrendered and under control – so another day of winning.
Day 3 started with another good talk with my wife – who continues to amaze me – and starting to formulate 90-day goals. The key indeed is to keep it simple.
Some bad news thereafter with a knock back on a job application that was looking promising. But I have to stay positive and persevere – the right job is out there and waiting.
Plan for today is to continue applications for both primary job and a 2nd part time job (to keep me busy/honest/humble and supplement income), ongoing general admin, and attend my first GA meeting. Feeling slightly anxious about this. So far, apart from with my family, all of my interaction on this has been remote. I will now be facing people and with them my reality even more closely. But I know I have to do this and will have to keep doing this – one day at a time.