not too a bad a day today, no trigger situations, i have deleted my football app, although i like checking scores, i know if i see a game with goals potential, the devil on my shoulder would be jumping up and down begging me and dragging me to the bookies. i also put a “days since” calculator on the phone as i expect to be clocking up some days on this thing.
i wondered today where i would be if i had never gambled, would i have a house? would i have a nice bank account where i didnt have to sit and work out my finances weekly? i think so but i know i cant get to this places by trying to recover losses with more losses, i am never going to cover 25 years of losses EVER i’ll only add to them. this journey has to continue. i think if i fail i will lose hope of ever being free. 3 days is a good start considering it took me 4 days to complete day 1
