[wayne28]

really tired didn’t sleep but didn’t gamble, stayed away from sleeping pills. yesterday was hard got really angry and on edge by end day. so avoided people. but mentally feel a little better. today going to pay some bills long overdue. a little to stop the rot and a little to reduce amount owed. going to keep going and trying. but feel a bit optimistic this morning not as much negative thoughts. will catch up on some sleep. just for today I will not gamble il take it by the minute. I get the fear if I look further from today. lots of thanks to you all. check in later.