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Still no words but i have this lump in my throat constantly, like i am going to just open those floodgates and its all going to come out.. Its not though because i have to work.. I have to keep it in there and fake it till i make it.. I have to plaster a smile on my face that i hate so much right now.. Inside i am dying, I am so devastated, I am so upset. It is going to take some time to recover..