Thank guys for the comments. It is nice in a weird way to know I’m not the only one that is going through this. And it’s not just a problem with me. And yeah reading through the blogs of some of the people that have managed to get to a year without gambling has been very inspiring.
So update for day 2.
Work has kept me pretty busy today. Absolutely devastated about the horse Many Clouds passing away.
Anyway being at work bizarrely I have zero temptation to go online and gamble. It’s at home, when I’m bored and have no university work to do that the cycle begins. I think £10 won’t hurt me or my bank balance. But ultimately that £10 turns into £20 and that £20 turns into £40 and the cycle goes on.
So far at home, I’ve had my temptation to go and put money online. But I closed all my accounts and I hate going through the sign up process so hopefully this should keep me from doing anything that 12 hours from now I’ll regret.
I swear everyday my mind drifts to the amount I had and lost. And it makes me sad and disappointed in myself.
My goal as I said is to start saving as I want a deposit for a house. And I know that also means having “clean” bank statements. Has anyone had any problems getting a mortage because of past gambling activities?
Thanks for the support, it means a lot.
Again I’ll try post tomorrow for my sanity.
And I hope everyone on here manages to keep going with this too.
Thanks,
AP