Compulsive gambling is not going to disappear. It’s something that I have to deal with for the rest of my life. When I think about the longevity of “rest of my life”, it seems like an eternity. That’s why I must think of this recovery as one day at a time. All I can do is to not gamble today.
I have to admit, the thoughts of gambling are stronger. I can’t believe it’s only been 15 days since that awful day and I’m thinking about depositing some money onto an online sportsbook to make a long shot parlay bet to win back all the money that I lost. This is INSANE! If I win, it’s not like I’m going to stop gambling, and my time will be filled with irritable and agitated thoughts if i have the money. Either way I LOSE, therefore I will not gamble.